Posts tagged personal.

Still drunk as fuck. Last night was a GREAT success, as is obvious from my numerous text posts. Listen, I was drunk as fuck for MARDI GRAS, so jump off this. It was sad, one of my best gays was with us and he’s usually a shit show, but last night he was relatively sober, so I guess I just had to attempt to black out for him. IDK, but regardless, here I am, still quiiiiite drunk, and I’ve got class in less than an hour. FUCK.

Finance quiz in about two hours. Shouldn’t be too difficult. I just need to get to studying! My battery life is at about 83%, but I let Alex borrow my charger since he has misplaced his. Hopefully getting it back this afternoon sometime, because I’ve got lots of shit to do in preparation from my Principles of taxation exam tonight at 7. booo.

tomorrow, I’m going home for the weekend. Not too excited about it because I’m going to have to miss out on a bunch of wonderful things (and certain people). But, I will be returning to Pullmonster with an iPhone. So it’s worth it. The past 3 or 4 phones that I’ve owned, I have paid for with my own money. This time, my parents are buying me the phone since they asked me to join them on a family plan (that will save us all money). When parents offer to buy an iphone, one does not say no.

ughhh I need to study. 

Truth.

I think I may need anxiety medication. It’s just so easy to send me into a fit of rage and anxiety, and last night I nearly lost an amazing friend because of it. I have a lot of issues that I keep very well hidden from people, so no one usually expects me to blow up when I do. It’s something that I’ve struggled with my entire life. I hear about something that I don’t particularly want to hear, and I will convince myself that it is far worse than it is. To an absurd level. My issues with jealousy and impulsivity play a huge part in this equation as well. I jump to conclusions more than anyone I know. I’m blessed with amazing friends who have come to accept this. I don’t think I really deserve some of them, but they’ve stuck by me and I’m so thankful. My anxiety and anger management struggles can be compared to placing a lighted match in gasoline. I can freak out on you at the drop of a hat, but can also calm down and regain composure almost just as quickly. 

I just wish I could be more composed, and less sensitive. But I don’t know if that’s going to happen any time soon. 

But in the meantime, thanks to everyone who sticks by me. I’m worth it :)

1000th post!

It’s been a wonderful 6 months Tumblr. You’ve given me many things. Good and bad. 

But I’d like to use this post to just say this: I’m happy. For the first time in a long time I find myself inexplicably happy. Nothing particularly wonderful is going on in my life currently, but here I am, with a big smile on my face. 

Now there actually are some reasons, of which I do not have any intentions on discussing here. But I will say this, I feel free. Completely free. 

And it’s fucking wonderful :)

No I will not accept your follower request!

Nor will I follow you, or take control of your pussy.

Looking at my bank statement.

It pretty much consists of mostly the following

Liquor Store

Bars (Stubblefields, Valhalla, The Zzu)

Safeway for groceries, but mainly just for pizza rolls

gas.

It’s boring, but it’s my life. 

Speaking of which, I’ve got a final to study for, and some pizza rolls would really hit the spot right now. 

I have an exam in a about an hour in my criminal justice 403 class - “Violence Toward Women”

It’s a fascinating class, and the tests are relatively easy. But my ADD has kicked into full gear these past few days so my studying has not been super effective. We’ll see.

blahhhh

Andrea bought us a breathalyzer. It says that it’s not for games but it totally is. We’re going to monitor our drunkenness all the time now. 

“oooo girl I just blew a point .2”

I’m kidding, that’d be irresponsible. ;)